Received a bad news from my family in Malaysia this morning. My ah-mah has passed away at 2.13am.
The first thought in my mind was I had to go back to pay her last respect but somehow there were a lot going on in my mind at the same time. I am not too sure how to express it out.
When I rang my mom, all I did was I kept quiet and my mom thought the line was playing up and hung up on me -_-”
Then I rang again.I couldn’t control my emotions and I cried so much that my mom couldn’t speak to me and pass the phone to my dad. All he said to me was “control yourself and keep calm!” I guess it was very hard for my dad too.
Ah-mah has been suffering alzheimer all this while ever since my ah-yeh passed away. At that time I was still in my 20s and I didn’t understand why is my grandma behaving like this. From then, my ah-mah’s health has been going down hill. She had to be admitted to the nursing home because it was causing too much stress to everyone to look after her.
The last time I visited her was on my recent trip back to Malaysia. I bought Zarina along to see her great grand mother. It was very heart breaking to see how much my ah-mah has changed but I can tell she acknowledge our presence.
Ah-mah may you rest in peace.
Love always.





